life is a maze and love is like a riddle` ♥

Tuesday, May 15, 2007 { 5/15/2007 12:12:00 PM }

i really really really speechless. after reading all your previous post, i felt so hurt. i felt like i have stab u in the heart. BUT YOU DID IT TO ME TOO.. u have done much more worst than wad i've done. and i know wads on yr mind. u did tt to me, nows my turn to stab u. no.! im not thinkin that way. i wont and i never will.
i dont understand why do u think im her of number 2. you know i hate it when u say tt to me. i hate it when u gossip with the other GUYS abt me behind my back. (you should know who). its very irritating. i dont even do that la. i dont understand why do u wna do tt. i didn hurt u tt badly. i told u once tt i dont wna hurt u and ask u to let go. there are many other better than me waiting for u and u jus dont wna listen. is it my fault again?
whatever i do, whatever i say, its always my fault. always and forever. i know u didn say its my fault but from what yr previous post say. its so hurting. i never do tt ok. i admit my own tts its my fault. but i didn flirt with you.! i never will. you are the one. u make me lose trust & love in you.
u make me speechless when u ask me the questions tt its so hard for me to open my mouth. you think..! think it over again and again and again. i said some things tt it really happen and u even dare to tell me it will never happen. oh ya right.! and when i ask u impt questions, u keep quiet n try to avoid.
i know u too well. its too good to be true tt u will not do whatever its under yr control. you always misuse the trust and love i had for u. what do u expect from me. im really afraid, do u know. i need help, you there? i msg u, u're busy msging some other pple. you are always busy with other things and with other pple. i told u one thing, u tell me another. i agree with u then u disagree with me again. what do u want?
i waited? u didn realise. u waited i tried but i jus cant and i told u. i told u almost everythin. some u believe, some u dont even believe a single shit. its too hard for me to go back. i would accept u if the time really restart. but what u've done, i really have to think it all over again.
you always assume i know this, i know that. YOU ALWAYS ASSUME. assuming and thinking dont bring u far. you have to be sure. you always think u are the best in most things. you always think you are correct. you always think yr the smartest. i admit u are in some but not all. not even almost. you dont even understand how i feel or how others feel if u do somethin. it hurts. tell u, you dont listen, u rather go against it even if it consists of your health.
WHATEVER you know. WHATEVER..! i really dont understand. you say somethin but in the other hand, its another story. and when i open your truth, you come out with other story. u jus dont admit yr wrong. or else u will run away or keep yr mouth shut and pretend nothing has happen. ask u to say out everythin, u rather shut yr ass up. when u are suppose to shut up, u dont want. when you are not suppose to shut up, u shut yr mouth up. what u want? you "rarely" do whatever yr told to. everybody makes mistakes. even me. even god. why are u like this. whatever u say, u say and actions made the same way as wad u say. u dont hv to stab pple u know. sign. now u have HER. go and have her all u want. i dont bother or care. i dont even know is it true whatever u said in the past. is it even true at all? you think.! nows my turn to say. THINK...!!!
oh and now you already found a person who is more than willingly to buy you the flesh imp jacket. im sure you are more than happy to accept it. why bother asking from me. and i saved the money jus for tt. nevermind, i can use it for other stuff. thanks for helping me save though. whatever. bet u dont even read this post. why bother tellin u. -_-'